I havent done any painting for a long time, GCSE art put me right off but I've been getting the urge to paint so I went through all my arty farty stuff last night and had a play around with my watercolours. Wanted to share the little painting I did, its only simple but I reckon its quite cute!
Just a quick post from me today, must do me and my other half some dinner, I'm starving!
Thursday, September 22
Saturday, September 17
Autumn Decorations Galore! Part One
As we're well into September, the harvest and Samhain isn't far away I've been looking through Etsy at some of the wonderful handmade Autumn decorations and thought this would be a perfect time to share some of the things I've found, as I wanted to post so many I decided to post it in two parts, the next part will be posted soon so keep an eye out!
Pumpkins are a must at this time of year - autumn wouldn't be the same without those colourful squashes with scary faces! Here are some amazing felt and fabric pumpkins I found on Etsy -
This 4x5inch needle felted pumpkin is a Nushkie Designs creation, capturing the wonderful orange colouring of the much loved Halloween decorations. Pumpkins aren't the only thing that Nushkie makes either - check out Nushkie's shop to see a enchanting collection of needle felted fairies that would make wonderful additions to any ones home all year round.
The second pumpkin I'd like to share is again a needle felted one, a different style to the first but just as beautiful -
This one is made by Felttess who currently has an amazing array of Halloween themed designs for sale in her shop. Felttess also does custom orders so don't hesitate to get in contact with her via Etsy.
Here is the last, but not least, pumpkin I wanted to share with you -
Perfectly described as a "Farmhouse Pumpkin" this is made and sold by Miss Hettie who specialises in all things vintage, from furniture to children's clothing as well as one of hand made items, such as this paper mache pumpkin. I love the use of the raffia! Check out her Etsy shop for some amazing finds!
Wreaths aren't just for Yule ladies and gentlemen and this next Etsy listing I'm going to show you will prove it!
Look at those colours! It really does capture the colours of autumn in such a fantastic way! This wreath is one of many made and sold by Sherry Buckner in her shop, Petal Pusher's Designs. Sherry also has a website and you can follow her on Twitter @werpetalpushers and don't forget to check out her Facebook Page!
And now for one of my favourite type of decorations - a garland.
This spooky garland is made by the lovely Christine and sold in her shop, Flappergirl
this is just one example of an amazing collection of retro paper garlands so make sure you check out her shop - there are also some cute little aprons that I've fallen in love with! Christine has a blog and a Facebook page where you can keep up to date with her latest retro designs.
What witch doesn't have a love for candles? These candlestick holders would be wonderful additions to any ones autumn decorations -
Pumpkins are a must at this time of year - autumn wouldn't be the same without those colourful squashes with scary faces! Here are some amazing felt and fabric pumpkins I found on Etsy -
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Autumn Pumpkin 4x5 Waldorf Inspired |
The second pumpkin I'd like to share is again a needle felted one, a different style to the first but just as beautiful -
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Orange Pumpkin - Needle Felted Halloween Decoration |
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Farmhouse Fall Decorations Halloween Thanksgiving Decor Harvest Pumpkin |
Wreaths aren't just for Yule ladies and gentlemen and this next Etsy listing I'm going to show you will prove it!
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Beautiful, Cornucopia, Thanksgiving, Fall, Door, Wreath, Harvest, with FREE US Shipping |
And now for one of my favourite type of decorations - a garland.
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Spooky Halloween Decoration Garland Vintage Inspired |
this is just one example of an amazing collection of retro paper garlands so make sure you check out her shop - there are also some cute little aprons that I've fallen in love with! Christine has a blog and a Facebook page where you can keep up to date with her latest retro designs.
What witch doesn't have a love for candles? These candlestick holders would be wonderful additions to any ones autumn decorations -
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Thanksgiving Home Decor Fall Harvest Candle Stick Holders Rustic Chic Distressed Wood Set of 3 |
These Morgan Hill Design Candle Stick Holders are brought to you by a husband and wife team (the perfect kind in my opinion!) and sold in their Etsy shop, BraggingBags. I've never seen a better set of autumn candle stick holders and might have to buy them for myself!
I have to say, this last autumn decoration I'm going to show you is my favourite - this little evil mouse witch Gwendolyn has stolen my heart! Wort's 'n' all!
I have to say, this last autumn decoration I'm going to show you is my favourite - this little evil mouse witch Gwendolyn has stolen my heart! Wort's 'n' all!
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Halloween Witch Mouse Ornament felt rat hamster mice cute gift for animal lover or collector by TheHouseofMouse - Gwendolyn |
You must, must, must read Gwendolyn's interview in the listing, its adorable! The creators of this wonderful little mouse, as well as more mice than you can count, are Naomi and Anna and to get your hands on one of these little mice pop along to their shop, TheHouseofMouse.
I hope you enjoyed the photographs and that you will be whipping out those PayPal accounts and clicking your way on over to Etsy. It truly is a treasure chest!
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Monday, September 5
Not a Happy Bunny
Summery of the day: I nearly had to crap in a bin.
Background: Last year, god knows when, our boiler broke. Just stopped working one afternoon. We tried to get hold of the landlord but no luck - turns out that his house flooded and his mobile phone (the one we have the number for) was destroyed and he only rarely checks his emails so it wasn't until two weeks later that he got in contact. Someone came out, the boiler was fixed and all was well. A month or so later the boiler broke again but a couple of weeks later magically started working again. It was OK for a while but then broke again. Contacted the landlord (again) who got a plumber out and he fixed it - this was just before last Christmas. We then get the winter water bill - it had gone from about £60 a month to £250 a month. WTF? Turns out the "fix" that the plumber did was only meant to be temporary and the landlord was meant to get a new one installed ASAP. The temporary fix meant that the boiler was using massive amounts of electricity but not doing much with it until finally the boiler tripped all the electricity in the flat - this was in Feb.
From February until recently we have been attempting to get hold of the landlord with no luck - he wasn't replying to emails or anything. When he finally did get in contact again he said he thought that the boiler had been properly fixed the last time the plumber came out. Bearing in mind we had repeatedly emailed him telling him that it wasn't.
Anyway, back to present day. Landlord bought a new boiler - was going to be installed last Wednesday but the one delivered was damaged. Fair enough, things happen. So, a new one gets delivered today, I haven't been feeling well so I stayed in bed and let my other half deal with it. At about 1pm (the boiler arrived at 10:30am) I woke up and stumbled out of the bedroom and into the hallway (where the boiler is) to find the boiler cupboard doors propped up against the wall (fine, would had been hard to work around them) and a plumber drinking tea and looking over the instruction manual of some sort by the new boiler. The shiny new boiler. Oh how I have wanted a shiny new boiler for soooooo long.
Guess what the landlord didn't ask for or get (hadn't even occurred to me to be honest)? Measurements. Of the cupboard. The one where the shiny new boiler will go.
So, this is the result -
Doesn't look bad does it? From this angle, nope, looks fine!
From this angle? Can you notice what the problem is?
Those runner thingies above it are where the doors are meant to fit into - the damned boiler sticks out so much you cant put the doors back in. I measured it - its 5inches too long. Wide. Whatever.
I now have a monstrosity of a boiler for everyone to see as soon as they walk in my front door (the door you see is my front door, I live in a flat). Lovely.
Just for added decoration here are the doors (ignore the metal panels, they will be fitted onto the front of the boiler once its finished).
So, it's just gone 1pm and I realise I need to go to the loo. In both senses of the word. The water is still off, I cant go round to the neighbours (I don't know them) and obviously I cant use the toilet. I thought, bugger this, I'm off back to bed.
I wake up again at about 4pm, the water is still off and I'm busting to go to the loo. I kept looking at our bedroom bin wondering if the plumber, or my other half, would hear me if I did my business in there. Thankfully, my wondering lasted just long enough - the plumber put the water back on before I took desperate measures. Wonderful! I don't have to crap in a bin.
I go into the bathroom, at a leisurely pace of course and sit down. My eyes wander to the bath which had a hose pipe in it. Ok... God knows what the plumber was doing with that. Then this little pile of dust/dirt catches my eye.
I'm puzzled and look up to find two holes in the tiles. I think my eyes bugged out of my head for a second.
A close up of the big one of the left -
I finish up in the bathroom and go straight into the living room where my other half is and glare at him. I did one of those shouting whispers, you know the ones I mean, saying that there are holes in the bathroom tiles. He says, "I know" with this look on his face that either meant "I don't care" or "Nothing I can do about it". Poor man had only had one hours sleep so I didn't get grumpy.
Apparently, when the plumber had been drilling in the cupboard, my other half went into the bathroom and saw the holes, he shows them to the plumber who pulls his glasses down his nose, looks at the holes then pushes his glasses back up and says, "Those walls are thin" and went back to work.
Yes, the walls are thin. Now I would have thought he would have realised he had drilled right through the wall the first time but nope, he did it twice. I can't say anything more on the matter otherwise I will end up smacking my head against the table I think.
After all this do we have hot water? Don't be silly! Course we don't, we have to wait until someone else can drill holes through our walls first!
Well, what a wonderful day.
Please excuse the rant and the amount of pictures. I'll have a happy, harvest themed post for you soon.
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life
Thursday, August 25
Oh the Stupidity
We all have those "Doh" moments when we realise we've done something really stupid. I was thinking about the little stupid things I've done in bed the other night, I don't know what my other half thought - I was giggling away in bed while he was in the living room... lol! Anyway, I thought I'd share those silly things I've done with you while I have my morning coffee.
A few weeks ago I walked into the spare bedroom, right up to the bed so that I could put something down onto the bed. Guess what I had left on the floor, by the bed? A candle holder. Doesn't sound too bad does it? Thing was, it wasn't just a bog standard tea light holder - it was a pillar candle holder with a SPIKE in the middle. The spike went straight into my heel, I squealed, pulled it out and called for my other half who said there was only a tiny bit of blood but he would call 999 if I wanted him to while smirking at me. Sod. I'm not quite sure which part was more stupid - leaving the holder on the floor or paying so little attention I stood on it. The candle holder, a long with others like it, went straight in the bin that night.
I cant remember if this was just before the candle holder incident or just after but I was in the kitchen, coring an apple with a gigantic knife. Did I cut a finger? No, I cut my belly. I stabbed myself in my belly coring an apple. 'nuff said.
Here's a non self harm one - the other night I was sat with my other half while doing a crossword (my current obsession), the clue was something a long the lines of "a joint in the arm", I promptly said, "Well, it cant be elbow unless elbow is spelt with a w at the end, unless "Swimmer" is wrong". My other half turned to me with a strange look on his face and said, "But it does end in a w....". Oh. Oops. I knew that elbow was spelt with a w but for some reason that bit of information had slipped out of my brain when I was doing the crossword. >.<
Many years ago, when I was still living with my mum I made some rice (it was for the dog who had an upset tummy, bland food settled her tum). Or at least I attempted to make some rice - I put the rice in the saucepan and put that onto the hob. Forgetting the water completely. After a while I realise what I had done, picked up the pan and put it straight onto the worktop. The hot pan on the cheap worktop. Result? Melted hole in the worktop.
Did I learn from that mistake? Na...
Couple of years ago I was cooking potatoes to mash - I remembered the water this time but forgot to keep an eye on them. They ran dry, I panicked, grabbed a chopping board and put the hot pan on that. The chopping board was plastic. We now have a lovely while chopping board with a large melted ring shape in the middle. At least I didn't melt the worktop!
Well, I think that's enough of my silliness for one day, I've finished my coffee and should get some housework done! I hope you're all having a wonderful week!
A few weeks ago I walked into the spare bedroom, right up to the bed so that I could put something down onto the bed. Guess what I had left on the floor, by the bed? A candle holder. Doesn't sound too bad does it? Thing was, it wasn't just a bog standard tea light holder - it was a pillar candle holder with a SPIKE in the middle. The spike went straight into my heel, I squealed, pulled it out and called for my other half who said there was only a tiny bit of blood but he would call 999 if I wanted him to while smirking at me. Sod. I'm not quite sure which part was more stupid - leaving the holder on the floor or paying so little attention I stood on it. The candle holder, a long with others like it, went straight in the bin that night.
I cant remember if this was just before the candle holder incident or just after but I was in the kitchen, coring an apple with a gigantic knife. Did I cut a finger? No, I cut my belly. I stabbed myself in my belly coring an apple. 'nuff said.
Here's a non self harm one - the other night I was sat with my other half while doing a crossword (my current obsession), the clue was something a long the lines of "a joint in the arm", I promptly said, "Well, it cant be elbow unless elbow is spelt with a w at the end, unless "Swimmer" is wrong". My other half turned to me with a strange look on his face and said, "But it does end in a w....". Oh. Oops. I knew that elbow was spelt with a w but for some reason that bit of information had slipped out of my brain when I was doing the crossword. >.<
Many years ago, when I was still living with my mum I made some rice (it was for the dog who had an upset tummy, bland food settled her tum). Or at least I attempted to make some rice - I put the rice in the saucepan and put that onto the hob. Forgetting the water completely. After a while I realise what I had done, picked up the pan and put it straight onto the worktop. The hot pan on the cheap worktop. Result? Melted hole in the worktop.
Did I learn from that mistake? Na...
Couple of years ago I was cooking potatoes to mash - I remembered the water this time but forgot to keep an eye on them. They ran dry, I panicked, grabbed a chopping board and put the hot pan on that. The chopping board was plastic. We now have a lovely while chopping board with a large melted ring shape in the middle. At least I didn't melt the worktop!
Well, I think that's enough of my silliness for one day, I've finished my coffee and should get some housework done! I hope you're all having a wonderful week!
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life
Tuesday, August 9
Life's a Stitch
I started a new cross stitch project yesterday, it's almost done, I just need to do one more row of stitches across the bottom and finish of the row at the top where I ran out of thread (typical!). I used a scrap bit of aida that I found - it was the perfect size! I'm not sure what I'm going to do with it yet, maybe sew it onto some felt and make a lightly padded hanging thingiemabob, maybe attach it to the front of one of those blank Kraft notebooks or photo albums from Paperchase... My other half thinks my grandma would love it but I'm not so sure I want to give it away!
It's a Lizzie Kate design, she has these wonderful little "Snippet" samplers, I bought mine from a craft show in Manchester a while a go.
The thread in the picture is what I need to finish it off - I didn't use the thread colours stated in the chart as I wasn't too keen on them. I rarely use the colours charts say to use anyway.
I made felt notebook cover the other night that I thought I would share too. I have a thing for lists and have a number of slimline notebooks but they aren't very pretty so I thought I would use up some scrap felt to make a cover. The stitching is a bit scruffy as I was tired when I made it but I still love it!
It's a Lizzie Kate design, she has these wonderful little "Snippet" samplers, I bought mine from a craft show in Manchester a while a go.
I made felt notebook cover the other night that I thought I would share too. I have a thing for lists and have a number of slimline notebooks but they aren't very pretty so I thought I would use up some scrap felt to make a cover. The stitching is a bit scruffy as I was tired when I made it but I still love it!
Labels:
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cross stitch,
felt
Monday, August 8
Household Organiser - Weekly Shop
Another addition to the Household Organiser - the "Weekly Shop" sheets, glad you liked the Monthly Planner sheets! Whenever I write a shopping list I always have one bit of paper for what we need for the meals I've planned and another bit of paper with everything else we need, usually referred to as the "Essentials" by me and my other half, hence the third column on the shopping list titled "Essentials".
These sheets will enable me (and you!) to quickly jot down something we run out of when we actually run out of it, rather than attempting to remember it when I go to write the shopping list. For example, if I run out of bay leaves (something I buy every so often rather than for specific meals), I'll write it straight down on in the Essentials column ready for when I do the shopping. Also, if I decide to make a certain meal for the coming week, before writing the actual shopping list, I can easily jot down the ingredients I need and not loose the bit of paper with the list on - it will all be safe in the Household Organiser!
This will work well for me as I shop online, sometimes my other half goes to the shop and when he does I still do the normal type of shopping list and then create another shopping list ordering the items in regards to where they are in the shop so it's easy for him to find everything. I've got these long slimline notebooks that are perfect for shopping lists that I use for those lists.
Weekly Shop
These sheets will enable me (and you!) to quickly jot down something we run out of when we actually run out of it, rather than attempting to remember it when I go to write the shopping list. For example, if I run out of bay leaves (something I buy every so often rather than for specific meals), I'll write it straight down on in the Essentials column ready for when I do the shopping. Also, if I decide to make a certain meal for the coming week, before writing the actual shopping list, I can easily jot down the ingredients I need and not loose the bit of paper with the list on - it will all be safe in the Household Organiser!
This will work well for me as I shop online, sometimes my other half goes to the shop and when he does I still do the normal type of shopping list and then create another shopping list ordering the items in regards to where they are in the shop so it's easy for him to find everything. I've got these long slimline notebooks that are perfect for shopping lists that I use for those lists.
Weekly Shop
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menus,
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Saturday, August 6
Household Organiser - Monthly Planner
I'm in the process of getting properly organised and my first step is a household organiser consisting of five different sections - Planners, Shopping, Finances, Contacts and Information. Well, those are the sections I plan on using - no idea if I will stick to those or change things along the way!
The planning section is where I'm starting. It will consist of three different types of sheets - a yearly calender, a monthly calender with a note section and a daily planner. There will be a page for each day with to do lists, meal planning etc and at the beginning of each month will be the monthly planner, sort of an overview of the coming month which can be referred to throughout.
I've made the monthly planner, starting from August 2011 up until December 2011, no need to print of next years yet. I uploaded it to Scribd so that you guys can download it if you want to :) The pages are A4 and have a 2cm margin on the left and right sides allowing room for it to be hole punched. It's a .PDF file, if anyone wants the Word file or a small change made let me know and I'll do it for you :) I haven't included any holidays on it as we all celebrate different times, dates etc, I thought it would be better to leave it blank rather than having holidays on there you don't celebrate!
2011 Monthly Planner
The planning section is where I'm starting. It will consist of three different types of sheets - a yearly calender, a monthly calender with a note section and a daily planner. There will be a page for each day with to do lists, meal planning etc and at the beginning of each month will be the monthly planner, sort of an overview of the coming month which can be referred to throughout.
I've made the monthly planner, starting from August 2011 up until December 2011, no need to print of next years yet. I uploaded it to Scribd so that you guys can download it if you want to :) The pages are A4 and have a 2cm margin on the left and right sides allowing room for it to be hole punched. It's a .PDF file, if anyone wants the Word file or a small change made let me know and I'll do it for you :) I haven't included any holidays on it as we all celebrate different times, dates etc, I thought it would be better to leave it blank rather than having holidays on there you don't celebrate!
2011 Monthly Planner
Tuesday, August 2
Sausages Braised in Cider
Made this the other night, was wonderful!
Sausages Braised in Cider

6-8 pork sausages
200mls chicken stock
500mls dry cider
3-5 celery sticks
3-5 carrots
1 large onion
2 garlic cloves
Freshly ground black pepper
2 bay leaves
Fresh or dried thyme
Tbsp plain flour
Sausages Braised in Cider
6-8 pork sausages
200mls chicken stock
500mls dry cider
3-5 celery sticks
3-5 carrots
1 large onion
2 garlic cloves
Freshly ground black pepper
2 bay leaves
Fresh or dried thyme
Tbsp plain flour
Heat a little oil in an oven proof casserole dish with a tight fitting lid and add your sausages. This is when disaster struck for me - the sausages completely fell apart... Ack! Fry them until they are browned all over
Remove the sausages once cooked, leaving all the juices behind. Chop up your onion, garlic and celery and place in the casserole dish and cook for a few minutes, until the onion starts to soften.
Now stir in a heaped tablespoon of plain flour and coat all the veg with it. Slowly add the cider, ensuring to keep things stirred. Once the cider is all in, add the stock, again slowing while stirring. Then add your carrots, thyme and put the sausages back in.
Doesn't too good at this stage, I have to admit. I do promise that it will be a lot darker once its finished! Bring to the boil then place into the oven for 20-30 minutes. Serve with mash and green veggies such as peas. You can also fry up some apples in butter and garnish it with those.
No more pictures I'm afraid - as soon as it was out of the oven and onto the plates I was munching away! The smell is wonderful and too good to resist!
Sunday, July 24
Depression and Anxiety
I've suffered from depression for five or six years now, with a touch of anxiety thrown in for good measure. I originally thought that my depression was down to being a teenager - you know, all those hormones and what have you. I then came to realise that in fact I suffered from a mental disorder that needed medical attention and wouldn't sort itself out once I left my teens and my body became "stable". I sought out help, went to my GP and was put on anti depressants, therapy was not offered but I think the GP put me on the Community Mental Health Teams waiting list.
The first anti depressants didn't go too well - I ended up having panic attacks and any glance in the mirror made me want to scratch my own eyes out. No idea why I had that particular reaction to them but two weeks later I was put onto a different type, which I've been on for a three or so years now. They work, the depression is under control and what have you but the anxiety has gotten progressively worse, to the point where I ha vent left the house for almost three months.
It seems I have developed agoraphobia without even realising it.
Definition from About.com (their source - American Psychiatric Association. (1994). Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (4th Ed.). Washington, DC: Author)
Panicked Feelings - I suffer from panic attacks and I fear having them which in itself causes a panic attack. Hyperventilation, at least for me, causes me to feel sick, dizzy, shakey, hot, sweaty and if I don't calm down quickly my hands go into spasm, both my arms and legs go numb and I get pins and needles in my face.
Avoidant Behaviour - I avoid leaving my flat which is my "secure" place. When I'm at home I rarely have a panic attack and the ones I do have at home are because I'm about to leave it/should be leaving it.
Clustering - I didn't actually realise just how much I avoided situations until it became so bad I wouldn't leave my flat. Thinking back, I've always had a fear of going to new places, I'd stick to my usual haunts and would usually refuse to go out with family and friends if they wanted me to go somewhere new, it then progressed to avoiding certain public transport, then avoiding going to places that weren't close to my flat, to eventually not leaving my flat at all.
The problems that anxiety has caused me have been awful - financially, I've screwed both myself and my other half up, I have no friends, I don't visit family and I cant even remember the last time I walked on grass or touched a tree trunk.
I will be seeing my GP this week (well, I'll arrange a home visit) and I will be able to discuss treatment with him. I'm just terrified I will never become well, that I'll never be able to go outside and enjoy the sunshine without being terrified. That I'll never be able to go shopping or to Chester Zoo or get married because of these stupid fears that I don't really understand. But, there is treatment, therapies and all sorts that I can try so I will never give up hope that's for sure, I control the depression, I can control the anxiety too!
Sorry for the "poor me" type post - with the docs appointment this week I've been thinking a lot about my illnesses and wanted to share my own experiences with it, maybe someone out there with similar feelings will realise that they aren't alone.
Just a bit of shameful advertising - I'm selling a few books and a tarot deck on eBay, if you're looking for some bargins check out the items I have for sale - http://shop.ebay.co.uk/lifeofadomesticwitch/m.html?_trksid=p4340.l2562
The first anti depressants didn't go too well - I ended up having panic attacks and any glance in the mirror made me want to scratch my own eyes out. No idea why I had that particular reaction to them but two weeks later I was put onto a different type, which I've been on for a three or so years now. They work, the depression is under control and what have you but the anxiety has gotten progressively worse, to the point where I ha vent left the house for almost three months.
It seems I have developed agoraphobia without even realising it.
Definition from About.com (their source - American Psychiatric Association. (1994). Diagnostic and statistical manual of mental disorders (4th Ed.). Washington, DC: Author)
Agoraphobia is often misunderstood as a phobia of leaving home. However, this is not quite accurate. Agoraphobia is a phobia of being in a situation where escape would be difficult or impossible, or help would be unavailable if a panic attack should occur.
Agoraphobia is often a progressive phobia, and may eventually lead to a fear of leaving the house. However, it is the panic attack, rather than the act of being in public, that is the cause of the fear. Symptoms of agoraphobia may include:This rings true with me -
Agoraphobia often develops out of an untreated panic disorder. More information about panic disorder with agoraphobia can be found at What is Agoraphobia? However, agoraphobia sometimes develops with no prior history of panic disorder. A mental health professional can determine whether your symptoms are those of agoraphobia or another disorder.
- Panicked Feelings: Agoraphobia can become a self-replicating cycle. The sufferer is anxious about having a panic attack which can, in turn, lead to a panic attack.
- Avoidant Behavior: Limiting life activities in an effort to avoid situations where help for a panic attack may not be available.
- Clustering: A pattern of avoided situations is generally present. Common clusters include public transportation; shopping; driving; and leaving home.
Panicked Feelings - I suffer from panic attacks and I fear having them which in itself causes a panic attack. Hyperventilation, at least for me, causes me to feel sick, dizzy, shakey, hot, sweaty and if I don't calm down quickly my hands go into spasm, both my arms and legs go numb and I get pins and needles in my face.
Avoidant Behaviour - I avoid leaving my flat which is my "secure" place. When I'm at home I rarely have a panic attack and the ones I do have at home are because I'm about to leave it/should be leaving it.
Clustering - I didn't actually realise just how much I avoided situations until it became so bad I wouldn't leave my flat. Thinking back, I've always had a fear of going to new places, I'd stick to my usual haunts and would usually refuse to go out with family and friends if they wanted me to go somewhere new, it then progressed to avoiding certain public transport, then avoiding going to places that weren't close to my flat, to eventually not leaving my flat at all.
The problems that anxiety has caused me have been awful - financially, I've screwed both myself and my other half up, I have no friends, I don't visit family and I cant even remember the last time I walked on grass or touched a tree trunk.
I will be seeing my GP this week (well, I'll arrange a home visit) and I will be able to discuss treatment with him. I'm just terrified I will never become well, that I'll never be able to go outside and enjoy the sunshine without being terrified. That I'll never be able to go shopping or to Chester Zoo or get married because of these stupid fears that I don't really understand. But, there is treatment, therapies and all sorts that I can try so I will never give up hope that's for sure, I control the depression, I can control the anxiety too!
Sorry for the "poor me" type post - with the docs appointment this week I've been thinking a lot about my illnesses and wanted to share my own experiences with it, maybe someone out there with similar feelings will realise that they aren't alone.
Just a bit of shameful advertising - I'm selling a few books and a tarot deck on eBay, if you're looking for some bargins check out the items I have for sale - http://shop.ebay.co.uk/lifeofadomesticwitch/m.html?_trksid=p4340.l2562
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anxiety,
depression,
health
Monday, July 18
Apple Spice Cookies
With the three autumn harvest festivals coming up I'm going to be sharing a variety of tasty recipes using seasonal foods, starting with cookies and biscuits. Whether you make up a batch for your seasonal celebrations, as a gift for a loved one or just for a tasty snack with your afternoon coffee or tea, I hope these spiced cookies with an apple filling will be a hit with everyone!
Apple Spice Cookies
Ingredients
Preheat the oven to 190°C and line 2 large baking trays with baking paper. Roll out the dough and cut out the cookies with a 5cm square cookie cutter and place them on the baking sheets ensuring that they are well spaced. Bake for 15 minutes or so, until they are golden brown. Leave to cool.
To make the filling, mix the sugar custard powder and milk together in a saucepan and bring to the boil, stirring continuously until the mixture is thick. Remove from the heat and stir in the apple sauce. Cover the surface of the pan with clingfilm and leave to cool.
One the cookies and filling are both cool, spoon the filling over half of the cookies and top with the remainder. Ta da! Lovely, sweet sandwich like cookies!
I want to add a thank you to this post as well - to the lovely Tamara at Riding on a Broomstick who gave me this award -
Thank you! You made me all proud and happy that day and definately glad that I started this blog!
Apple Spice Cookies
Ingredients
- 225g butter, softened
- 140g caster sugar
- 1 egg yolk, lightly beaten
- 2 tsp apple juice
- 280g plain flour
- 1/2 tsp ground cinnamon
- 1/2 tsp mixed spice
- pinch salt
- 100g dried apple, finely chopped
- 1 tbsp caster sugars
- 1 tbsp custard powder
- 125ml milk
- 5 tbsp apple sauce
Preheat the oven to 190°C and line 2 large baking trays with baking paper. Roll out the dough and cut out the cookies with a 5cm square cookie cutter and place them on the baking sheets ensuring that they are well spaced. Bake for 15 minutes or so, until they are golden brown. Leave to cool.
To make the filling, mix the sugar custard powder and milk together in a saucepan and bring to the boil, stirring continuously until the mixture is thick. Remove from the heat and stir in the apple sauce. Cover the surface of the pan with clingfilm and leave to cool.
One the cookies and filling are both cool, spoon the filling over half of the cookies and top with the remainder. Ta da! Lovely, sweet sandwich like cookies!
I want to add a thank you to this post as well - to the lovely Tamara at Riding on a Broomstick who gave me this award -
Thank you! You made me all proud and happy that day and definately glad that I started this blog!
Labels:
autumn,
awards cooking,
baking,
cookies,
recipe,
seasonal foods
Friday, July 8
Herbal Magic Spell Cards (Freebie Included)
You may have noticed that throughout my posts I use images to display recipes etc, from the essential oil blend I posted about the other day to the bolognaise recipe I typed onto a chalk board a few weeks ago. What can I say? I like recipe cards and things looking pretty and interesting.
I've made a "recipe card" for simple herbal magic spells that I will be using to post all my recipes on from now on, I will also be printing the cards off onto some pretty paper to keep in a folder. Just incase anyone wants to do the same I'm going to share the card. There are two sizes - 6in x 4in and 5in x 3in, to use them just right click on the image and "Save Image As". This will save it to your computer and allow you to either print it or type onto it using an image editing software (I use Photoshop CS5). There are also two types, one with no background and another design based on the colours of my blog. If you're going to print them I suggest using the blank ones otherwise you will use a lot of ink!
Here's an example of one that I've typed on (the black writing is size 14pt which means the spacing between the lines is plenty big enough for handwriting), I think it looks pretty cool!
The blank 6x4in cards:
The blank 5x3in cards:
I've made a "recipe card" for simple herbal magic spells that I will be using to post all my recipes on from now on, I will also be printing the cards off onto some pretty paper to keep in a folder. Just incase anyone wants to do the same I'm going to share the card. There are two sizes - 6in x 4in and 5in x 3in, to use them just right click on the image and "Save Image As". This will save it to your computer and allow you to either print it or type onto it using an image editing software (I use Photoshop CS5). There are also two types, one with no background and another design based on the colours of my blog. If you're going to print them I suggest using the blank ones otherwise you will use a lot of ink!
Here's an example of one that I've typed on (the black writing is size 14pt which means the spacing between the lines is plenty big enough for handwriting), I think it looks pretty cool!
The blank 6x4in cards:
The blank 5x3in cards:
Labels:
graphic freebie,
herbal magic
Thursday, July 7
Just Plain Cuteness
Seeing as I've only shared one video of Luna on here I'm dedicating this post to my lovely little hamster.
She's 7 or so months old now, me and my other half bought her from a breeder (Hammys World in Manchester). She's a little madam but sweet as anything too. For some strange reason she's taken to sleeping in her toilet at the moment... Anyway! Pictures and videos!
She's 7 or so months old now, me and my other half bought her from a breeder (Hammys World in Manchester). She's a little madam but sweet as anything too. For some strange reason she's taken to sleeping in her toilet at the moment... Anyway! Pictures and videos!
Saturday, July 2
Herbal Magic | Healing Oil
Just a quick post from me today with a herbal recipe for healing oil. I've used this as a massage oil for my other half who loved the smell. I havent stated what carrier oil to use although I use almond as its cheaper than the other types.
Labels:
eseential oils,
healing,
herbal magic
Friday, July 1
Notebooks and Divination Tools
I posted a photograph of my Book of Shadows on a previous post but I never mentioned my love of notebooks, note writing and list making. I make lists for almost everything - from to do lists to wish lists to shopping lists to lists planning events and every kind of list in between. I also make random notes, whether it be something that I've thought of, remembered or read in a book, I'll get it written down somewhere.
Here's a selection of my notebooks, all but the pink and blue ones are notebooks I have "on the go" at the moment.
The top left one is a Health and Beauty book from Paperchase that I keep all sorts of recipes, techniques and tips in on topics ranging from relaxation to first aid. The bottom left one is my Divination notebook where I keep records of any Tarot readings or Rune castings that I do. The bottom middle book is my Pagan notebook, it has draft versions of Book of Shadows pages, spell planning notes, notes on books I own plus a few lists like what essential oils I need to get, what books I would like and what not. The last one is my prayer book, its only small, perfect for carrying in my handbag.
I've been going through my "Witchy" (as I call them) things and thought I would share some photographs of my divination tools. All hold very special places in my heart, especially the clear quartz ball as it was given to me by a witch in Yorkshire (a story I will tell another time!). The amethyst Runes are mostly used for magic rather than divination but I thought I would include a photograph of them anyway. The Tarot deck is the "Tarot of a Moon Garden". The pendulum is made from amethyst, although its quite hard to tell as the photo came out a bit dark.
I hope that you like the almost finished design of the blog, I do have a few more things to do but its almost done.
Have a wonderful weekend, as a finishing note here is a video of my hamster stuffing her face which I took this morning -
Here's a selection of my notebooks, all but the pink and blue ones are notebooks I have "on the go" at the moment.
The top left one is a Health and Beauty book from Paperchase that I keep all sorts of recipes, techniques and tips in on topics ranging from relaxation to first aid. The bottom left one is my Divination notebook where I keep records of any Tarot readings or Rune castings that I do. The bottom middle book is my Pagan notebook, it has draft versions of Book of Shadows pages, spell planning notes, notes on books I own plus a few lists like what essential oils I need to get, what books I would like and what not. The last one is my prayer book, its only small, perfect for carrying in my handbag.
I've been going through my "Witchy" (as I call them) things and thought I would share some photographs of my divination tools. All hold very special places in my heart, especially the clear quartz ball as it was given to me by a witch in Yorkshire (a story I will tell another time!). The amethyst Runes are mostly used for magic rather than divination but I thought I would include a photograph of them anyway. The Tarot deck is the "Tarot of a Moon Garden". The pendulum is made from amethyst, although its quite hard to tell as the photo came out a bit dark.
I hope that you like the almost finished design of the blog, I do have a few more things to do but its almost done.
Have a wonderful weekend, as a finishing note here is a video of my hamster stuffing her face which I took this morning -
Labels:
divination,
luna,
notebooks,
tools
Sunday, June 26
Blog Redesign
Over the next few days or so I will be doing a complete revamp of my blog, please excuse the mess while I do it! You will know when I'm done because this post will disappear :)
Friday, June 24
Q: Can you do a Tarot reading for yourself?
A: Yup, you damn well can! At least in my opinion.
I fail to see the logic behind the notion that doing a Tarot reading (or any type of divination) for yourself will be biased or anything along those lines. Whether you do a reading for yourself, or someone does it for you, you will still have to further interpret the reading for you to understand how it applies to your own life. Thus, connecting, for example, the Lovers card to a person you have romantic feelings for. Doing the reading yourself just cuts out the middle man.
To explain further, again using the romantic feelings example, the person doing the reading pulls the Lovers card, explains the meaning behind it, how it related to the other cards in the spread etc then you explain to the reader that you have romantic feelings for Mr.X, you will then both discuss the possible implications of the Lovers card to the situation as well as other possible situations it may apply to. Or, if you are given a reading and are unable, for whatever reason (say its done online), to discuss it with the reader, you are still going to apply it to the most likely situation. Some, hopefully most, will explore other situations it will apply to as well but if your first instinct is that its regarding the person you have feelings for, then who is to say that your instinct is wrong?
If you want a totally objective, unbiased reading then it will have to be done by someone you don't know. That person certainly isn't going to turn around and say, "Oh! The Lovers card, it definitely applies to Fred, not Sam, the person you have a romantic feelings for so just ignore the first person who came to mind (Sam), because I know its about Fred". You still have to relate what they read, no matter how much detail they are able to go into (which wont contain names, or specific places etc etc) to your own life, because they don't know you or how it can relate to your life or situation. You have to do that part yourself which is the part can be said to be biased. In other words, no matter what the reading says, you are still ultimately going to have to interpret it yourself and apply it to yourself.
Well, that's enough ramblings from me. What's you're view on the matter?
Note that this is a modified reply that I gave to someone on The Pagan Meridians social network forum, I was going to be posting about the absurdities of the rule "To Be Silent" but that will now have to wait until the next time I can come online!
See you all next time,
Blessed Be x
I fail to see the logic behind the notion that doing a Tarot reading (or any type of divination) for yourself will be biased or anything along those lines. Whether you do a reading for yourself, or someone does it for you, you will still have to further interpret the reading for you to understand how it applies to your own life. Thus, connecting, for example, the Lovers card to a person you have romantic feelings for. Doing the reading yourself just cuts out the middle man.
To explain further, again using the romantic feelings example, the person doing the reading pulls the Lovers card, explains the meaning behind it, how it related to the other cards in the spread etc then you explain to the reader that you have romantic feelings for Mr.X, you will then both discuss the possible implications of the Lovers card to the situation as well as other possible situations it may apply to. Or, if you are given a reading and are unable, for whatever reason (say its done online), to discuss it with the reader, you are still going to apply it to the most likely situation. Some, hopefully most, will explore other situations it will apply to as well but if your first instinct is that its regarding the person you have feelings for, then who is to say that your instinct is wrong?
If you want a totally objective, unbiased reading then it will have to be done by someone you don't know. That person certainly isn't going to turn around and say, "Oh! The Lovers card, it definitely applies to Fred, not Sam, the person you have a romantic feelings for so just ignore the first person who came to mind (Sam), because I know its about Fred". You still have to relate what they read, no matter how much detail they are able to go into (which wont contain names, or specific places etc etc) to your own life, because they don't know you or how it can relate to your life or situation. You have to do that part yourself which is the part can be said to be biased. In other words, no matter what the reading says, you are still ultimately going to have to interpret it yourself and apply it to yourself.
Well, that's enough ramblings from me. What's you're view on the matter?
Note that this is a modified reply that I gave to someone on The Pagan Meridians social network forum, I was going to be posting about the absurdities of the rule "To Be Silent" but that will now have to wait until the next time I can come online!
See you all next time,
Blessed Be x
Labels:
divination,
tarot
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